No Longer There

Grip the sheets,

in heart break and in pain,

unfair, scream, unfair...

No longer there,

besides you,

no longer there.

Moving on,

changing skies,

changing tides,

growing up,

from boy to man...

Rain down the sobs,

puddles, lakes, oceans,

gather between us, pooled

in my pillow....

no longer there,

in your arms,

no longer there.

Gone away,

nowhere near home,

in a place of higher learning,

lofty ivory towers of theirs,

I want to return,

but not now, not with

anyplace for a man like me.

Clutching the scars,

ripped fabric, torn to the wind,

my heart, how long has it been,

without the touch of you...

no longer here,

to laugh in your arms,

no longer there...

Faded away,

no longer a white noise,

no longer who I was,

now a broken shell of who I am.

I'm not right anymore,

no longer him,

now I am who I am.

Twisted vines of cheap iron,

your body convulses,

or mine - mind,

no longer here,

for you, 

no longer there.

Photo by Miguel Lasa