Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Aware of Mortality

An inner barbed cage of per diem sleeplessness,
surrounded by crackling and snarling electrical currents of stress,
compressed by lifetimes of hopeful meditations & prayers,
all whilst the angelic madness of Schubert's Ave Maria
bleeds into the atmosphere between the realms of
my soul, my mind, and my being.

The curtains are drawn at the determined nocturnal hour,
ripped open at the painting of terror created,
screams running down the halls and jumping out the windows,
heart beats and headaches  vibrating and reverberating incessantly
while once cold feather is turned over so the rock awaiting
provides unconditional support and embrace.

The distant thundering through the forest of timber;
silvered ash and darkened pine ringed 'round the
numinous glade which with neither beast nor man
marred by their sacrilegious breath and heretical thought -
here, this place bespot with natural bounty and grace sang forth
among the choir of unimaginable realities & phantasmagorical beauties.

"Here lies a man," the stone will read,
"a man whose madness made his life
a gallery of colors which no kingdom nor community-forged
god could contest. Here's a man whose love for that
which will destroy him, outweighs even his love for himself.
Here lies a man, certain of uncertainties, finally aware
of his own mortality."


Saturday, April 9, 2016

Ecce Homo

I am the architect of my destruction,
I am the sculptor of my own destiny,

I no longer fear death,
I go to sleep knowing my demons may pull me to Hell,
I wake up finding salvation in your eyes,
No longer do I fall on my knees to pray,
My voice echoes from the Divine within,
I am my own God today.

I am the writer of fulfilled dreams,
I am the patron of my fortune,

Stone halls and stone walls,
cold from hypocrite repentance,
Religious discrimination, freedom, martyrdom
queer bedfellows - unable to share a social bedsheet.

I am the painter of stained-glass truths,
I am the creator of my own reality.









Thursday, April 7, 2016

Nebulaen Mystic

There is something not human in your bones,
You feel more at home staring at the stars,
The darkness and helplessness of your depression
erodes your sanity and roots you in a world of
bland scenery.

You bite the insides of your lips to feel mercurial pain,
You box your own ears to hear the ring of the bells of reality.

You are a nebula,
a birthplace of wishes & dreams -
You are a gypsy soul,
staring at bedroom walls dreaming
of someplace else.

Do not fear resting in the sands of uncertainty,
Do not fear the uncharted journey through this life,
regardless of the number of steps taken
or of the hours spent worrying
or the people who have come & gone in you life -

Regardless of all that is done or not -

Keep going.


Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Nephilim Girl

She was an angel who wanted to paint her wings
dark and black like the night.

She never heard me when I would say
the stars and universes were made for her
wondering eyes.

Sadness collected in the strands of hair in her face -
shutters to the details of the outside world.

Over time she died to the outside,
curling in,
finding solace within her own embrace.

She was an angel who broker her own wings
and ripped out her own feathers.

She denied her cosmic being & universal soul
just to hide her extra amongst us mere
terrestrials.